I'm an alien

And I tell myself to keep holding on.

11:14 PM THANKS MUM AND DAD.I CAME HOME NOT TO GET NAGGED AT BECAUSE OF MY RESULTS.I'M REALLY PISSED BECASE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH EFFORT I PUT IN,AND DON'T CLAIM THAT MY FRIENDS DISTRACT ME FROM MY REVISION.I'VE HAD ENOUGH ALREADY.I'M SORRY I TRIED TO BE AN EXAMPLARY DAUGHTER BUT I FAILED,TIME AND AGAIN.I WOKRED REALLY HARD FOR MY FYE,AND I KNOW MY RESULTS AREN'T GOOD BUT PLEASE,DON'T BLAME MY FRIENDS AND I.WE DON'T GO AROUND SLACKING AND NOT STUDYING.I DON'T HAVE FUN TOTURING MYSELF TO DO THE BLOODY MATHS QUESTIONS.I DON'T HAVE FUN WHEN I DRAG MYSELF FOR TUITION.I DON'T HAVE FUN WHEN I TRY TO MEMORISE ALL THE TEXT MATERIALS.I DON'T HAVE FUN WRITING DOWN ALL THE NOTES THAT I NEED FOR EXAMS.I DON'T HAVE FUN WHEN I GO TO SCHOOL ANYMORE.

I STILL REMEMBER YOU BLOODY MADE ME CRY ON MY BIRTHDAY.I STILL KEEP IT TO MYSELF AND CHOOSE NOT TO TELL YOU BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO AGGRAVATE THE WHOLE SITUATION.BECAUSE YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.

AND NOW YOU SAY I'M NOT WORKING HARD ENOUGH.WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME?RIGHT NOW,I KNOW MY CAPABILITIES,I'M NOT A STRAIGHT A STUDENT.I KNOW I AM DISAPPOINTING YOU AGAIN.BUT IT'S NOT EASY TO GET As.I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING ELSE TO SAY,SO IF YOU HAPPEN TO READ THIS,THEN I'M SORRY.I NEVER WANTED IT TO HAPPEN THIS WAY ANYWAY.